| Well.... I came off my anti-depressants and my birth control at about the same time (NOT PREGNANT!)..... my aggression came back... my mood swings came back and my weepy tendencies came back. Sucks big time. I argue at Phil consistently for no apparent reason. Basically, its like I'm back in college and pissed at the world. Mentally coreographing sword fights, mental arguments which I both lose and win, but get mad about no matter what. Crying over stupid shit. I hate this, this is why I started my lexapro in the first place. Why the hell did I come off it? Its only getting worse. I went on it to learn to control my emotions and now I can't even stop myself from crying like I could in high school. At least I can hold it off for a while until I'm alone. Maybe I should go back on... I hate living full of anger, I hate even more not having any kind of a handle on it. I got mad yesterday and left the house for 3 hours to get myself under control. that never happened before this. How long until I can tighten an iron grip on my emotions? I have to get it back. |
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| Lots of good news! We're married!!!! I'll have pictures soon :) THEN....... on Monday Phil got in to pharmacy college!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Better yet, its the one in Johnson City so we won't have to move!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| thanks to everyone who prayed, but Phil didn't make it in to ETSU's pharmacy school this fall. We still have two more options. Hopefully we'll hear from them soon! |
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| Guliani is gone!!!! Edwards is gone!!!! Dare we hope that Hillary goes next? |
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| Phil had his first interview with a pharmacy school today... it was the one in Johnson City. We'll know something by the middle of next week. I booked a photographer and have started slowly moving things into the apartment. Pray for Phil as he's trying to get in to ETSU. We'd really like to stay around here. |
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